vengeancegnome

what is there to do when you're beyond the reach of help when the only place to go is deep inside yourself what is there to say when you don't know what you need and all you can control is the amount you bleed when all you can do is turn to the flask they see the look in your eyes, and they decide not to ask you press down with the blade, the only way to feel the only way you can make sure that you're real when life is a game you dont want to play and the edges of existance begin to fray and as for that smile you that you wear underneath there is a sad eyed stare can you manage to hold on   even when all hope is gone w

i was more than a little drunk that night. what did i say to you? i cant remember what happened at all, but something isnt right. i suffocate past the tension in the air. what did i say to you? please, dont give me that look, you are making it unfair. you seem to have something to say. what did i say to you? but you are choking on your words today. this has changed who we are. what did i say to you? please tell me what i can do, you are my shining star. tell me what i did. what did i say to you? all i can do is make a bid. i cant base what we are on a guess. what did i say to you? this has turned out to be a royal

wandering down this path stumbling on this road waiting for the fall breaching on my being falling let me go spinning out of control screaming always forever unheard pondering on my demise burning in your laughter running i'm forever trapped falling let me go hiding but from alone falling let me go

you wear a big smile, but have a sad eyed stare. i know how it feels, to have no one care. (to scream inside but no one can hear you) to drag a blade across your skin over and over again just to relieve the pain that you feel everyone looks right through you, as if you arent even real. your nights are so long do you think you are strong..... enough to face yet another day? as you wish for the world to fade away silent from you eyes fall the tears. and in your mind constantly replaying are your fears. you know nothings alright but still you fight, to bring light into the darkness of your soul   in futile attempts to

Eyes. window to the soul. Your eyes are empty. In my soul, hatrid burns like acid. Yet the fountains of lifes till run. I live a slow montony of decomposition. Remorse and  ambilivence cloud my mind. Chasing away all chances of apathy. Another endless day of being trapped in this body, tormented. Another endless night with fate ahead. Destiny awaits me, my destiny is obliterated. My soul lost and wondering aimlessly Through the valley of death Spiraling downward Towards my demise. Faith can no longer save me. I succumb to the flames of my eternal hell. I come to the conclusion Of life versus death As crimson

dont look at me and act like you care you see right through me like im not even there look away nobody wants to see a fearful sight turn off the lights, maybe your world will disappear along with your smiles so fake but yet, nobody could see my tears, because i cried them inside and nobody ever took the time to look look past me to myself my lies have swallowed me up i dont know who i am, so i will never let you in because that wouldnt be fair so i lock myself away maybe another day in another life ill let you in because i dont know myself now and when i do, ill be selfish but dont worry ill let you see after i start

crash and burn, lost loves, only dreams dreams that wake me at night sobbing in my dreams, because i cryed myself to sleep every little thing makes me think of you every single song, reminds me of you too and i cry inside, and will forever it may not have seemed like that much to you.. but im shattered and the wind blows so cold through the empty place in my heart that you left when you said goodbye for the very, last time

all the things i ever did, and all the words you said    cant seem to stop, racing through my head   thinking back through all the lies i told, and things i could never be all images i hold, that i could never fill it broke my heart back then, and i hold the scars still all the things i cared about, and all the things i loved leave an empty space, no matter how insignificant they seem   you dont even know how much the fantasies of my life mean i thought i had a grip on something, that i would never let it go i thought that i would love you forever, but now i know that the things i lost, mean so much to me but you dont even know i e